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HELEN OF TROY and OTHER POEMS
BY SARA TEASDALE
Author of "Sonnets to Duse, and Other Poems"
To Marion Cummings Stanley
[1911]
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Part II: Love Songs
Song
- YOU bound strong sandals on my feet,
- You gave me bread and wine,
- And bade me out, 'neath sun and stars,
- For all the world was mine.
- Oh take the sandals off my feet,
- You know not what you do;
- For all my world is in your arms,
- My sun and stars are you.
The Rose and the Bee
- IF I were a bee and you were a rose,
- Would you let me in when the gray wind blows?
- Would you hold your petals wide apart,
- Would you let me in to find your heart,
- If you were a rose?
- "If I were a rose and you were a bee,
- You should never go when you came to me,
- I should hold my love on my heart at last,
- I should close my leaves and keep you fast,
- If you were a bee."
The Song Maker
- I MADE a hundred little songs
- That told the joy and pain of love,
- And sang them blithely, tho' I knew
- No whit thereof.
- I was a weaver deaf and blind;
- A miracle was wrought for me,
- But I have lost my skill to weave
- Since I can see.
- For while I sang -- ah swift and strange!
- Love passed and touched me on the brow,
- And I who made so many songs
- Am silent now.
Wild Asters
- IN the spring I asked the daisies
- If his words were true,
- And the clever little daisies
- Always knew.
- Now the fields are brown and barren,
- Bitter autumn blows,
- And of all the stupid asters
- Not one knows.
When Love Goes
- I
- O MOTHER, I am sick of love,
- I cannot laugh nor lift my head,
- My bitter dreams have broken me,
- I would my love were dead.
- "Drink of the draught I brew for thee,
- Thou shalt have quiet in its stead."
- II
- Where is the silver in the rain,
- Where is the music in the sea,
- Where is the bird that sang all day
- To break my heart with melody?
- "The night thou badst Love fly away,
- He hid them all from thee."
The Wayfarer
- LOVE entered in my heart one day,
- A sad, unwelcome guest;
- But when he begged that he might stay,
- I let him wait and rest.,p>
- He broke my sleep with sorrowing,
- And shook my dreams with tears,
- And when my heart was fain to sing,
- He stilled its joy with fears.
- But now that he has gone his way,
- I miss the old sweet pain,
- And sometimes in the night I pray
- That he may come again.
The Princess in the Tower
- I
- The Princess sings:
- I AM the princess up in the tower
- And I dream the whole day thro'
- Of a knight who shall come with a silver spear
- And a waving plume of blue.
- I am the princess up in the tower,
- And I dream my dreams by day,
- But sometimes I wake, and my eyes are wet,
- When the dusk is deep and gray.
- For the peasant lovers go by beneath,
- I hear them laugh and kiss,
- And I forget my day-dream knight,
- And long for a love like this.
- II
- The Minstrel sings:
- I lie beside the princess' tower,
- So close she cannot see my face,
- And watch her dreaming all day long,
- And bending with a lily's grace.
- Her cheeks are paler than the moon
- That sails along a sunny sky,
- And yet her silent mouth is red
- Where tender words and kisses lie.
- I am a minstrel with a harp,
- For love of her my songs are sweet,
- And yet I dare not lift the voice
- That lies so far beneath her feet.
- III
- The Knight sings:
- O princess cease your dreams awhile
- And look adown your tower's gray side --
- The princess gazes far away,
- Nor hears nor heeds the words I cried.
- Perchance my heart was overbold,
- God made her dreams too pure to break,
- She sees the angels in the air
- Fly to and fro for Mary's sake.
- Farewell, I mount and go my way,
- -- But oh her hair the sun sifts thro' --
- The tilts and tourneys wait my spear,
- I am the Knight of the Plume of Blue.
When Love was Born
- WHEN Love was born I think he lay
- Right warm on Venus' breast,
- And whiles he smiled and whiles would play
- And whiles would take his rest.
- But always, folded out of sight,
- The wings were growing strong
- That were to bear him off in flight
- Erelong, erelong.
The Shrine
- THERE is no lord within my heart,
- Left silent as an empty shrine
- Where rose and myrtle intertwine,
- Within a place apart.
- No god is there of carven stone
- To watch with still approving eyes
- My thoughts like steady incense rise;
- I dream and weep alone.
- But if I keep my altar fair,
- Some morning I shall lift my head
- From roses deftly garlanded
- To find the god is there.
The Blind
- THE birds are all a-building,
- They say the world's a-flower,
- And still I linger lonely
- Within a barren bower.
- I weave a web of fancies
- Of tears and darkness spun.
- How shall I sing of sunlight
- Who never saw the sun?
- I hear the pipes a-blowing,
- But yet I may not dance,
- I know that Love is passing,
- I cannot catch his glance.
- And if his voice should call me
- And I with groping dim
- Should reach his place of calling
- And stretch my arms to him,
- The wind would blow between my hands
- For Joy that I shall miss,
- The rain would fall upon my mouth
- That his will never kiss.
Love Me
- BROWN-THRUSH singing all day long
- In the leaves above me,
- Take my love this little song,
- "Love me, love me, love me!"
- When he harkens what you say,
- Bid him, lest he miss me,
- Leave his work or leave his play,
- And kiss me, kiss me, kiss me!
The Song for Colin
- I SANG a song at dusking time
- Beneath the evening star,
- And Terence left his latest rhyme
- To answer from afar.
- Pierrot laid down his lute to weep,
- And sighed, "She sings for me,"
- But Colin slept a careless sleep
- Beneath an apple tree.
Four Winds
- "FOUR winds blowing thro' the sky,
- You have seen poor maidens die,
- Tell me then what I shall do
- That my lover may be true."
- Said the wind from out the south,
- "Lay no kiss upon his mouth,"
- And the wind from out the west,
- "Wound the heart within his breast,"
- And the wind from out the east,
- "Send him empty from the feast,"
- And the wind from out the north,
- "In the tempest thrust him forth,
- When thou art more cruel than he,
- Then will Love be kind to thee."
Roundel
- IF he could know my songs are all for him,
- At silver dawn or in the evening glow,
- Would he not smile and think it but a whim,
- If he could know?
- Or would his heart rejoice and overflow,
- As happy brooks that break their icy rim
- When April's horns along the hillsides blow?
- I may not speak till Eros' torch is dim,
- The god is bitter and will have it so;
- And yet to-night our fate would seem less grim
- If he could know.
Dew
- I DREAM that he is mine,
- I dream that he is true,
- And all his words I keep
- As rose-leaves hold the dew.
- O little thirsty rose,
- O little heart beware,
- Lest you should hope to hold
- A hundred roses' share.
A Maiden
- OH if I were the velvet rose
- Upon the red rose vine,
- I'd climb to touch his window
- And make his casement fine.
- And if I were the little bird
- That twitters on the tree,
- All day I'd sing my love for him
- Till he should harken me.
- But since I am a maiden
- I go with downcast eyes,
- And he will never hear the songs
- That he has turned to sighs.
- And since I am a maiden
- My love will never know
- That I could kiss him with a mouth
- More red than roses blow.
"I Love You"
- WHEN April bends above me
- And finds me fast asleep
- Dust need not keep the secret
- A live heart died to keep.
- When April tells the thrushes,
- The meadow-larks will know,
- And pipe the three words lightly
- To all the winds that blow.
- Above his roof the swallows,
- In notes like far-blown rain,
- Will tell the little sparrow
- Beside his window-pane.
- O sparrow, little sparrow,
- When I am fast asleep,
- Then tell my love the secret
- That I have died to keep.
But Not to me
- THE April night is still and sweet
- With flowers on every tree;
- Peace comes to them on quiet feet,
- But not to me.
- My peace is hidden in his breast
- Where I shall never be,
- Love comes to-night to all the rest,
- But not to me.
Hidden Love
- I HID the love within my heart,
- And lit the laughter in my eyes,
- That when we meet he may not know
- My love that never dies.
- But sometimes when he dreams at night
- Of fragrant forests green and dim,
- It may be that my love crept out
- And brought the dream to him.
- And sometimes when his heart is sick
- And suddenly grows well again,
- It may be that my love was there
- To free his life of pain.
Snow Song
- FAIRY snow, fairy snow,
- Blowing, blowing everywhere,
- Would that I
- Too, could fly
- Lightly, lightly through the air.
- Like a wee, crystal star
- I should drift, I should blow
- Near, more near,
- To my dear
- Where he comes through the snow.
- I should fly to my love
- Like a flake in the storm,
- I should die,
- I should die,
- On his lips that are warm.
Youth and the Pilgrim
- GRAY pilgrim, you have journeyed far,
- I pray you tell to me
- Is there a land where Love is not,
- By shore of any sea?
- For I am weary of the god,
- And I would flee from him
- Tho' I must take a ship and go
- Beyond the ocean's rim.
- "I know a port where Love is not,
- The ship is in your hand,
- Then plunge your sword within your breast
- And you will reach the land."
The Wanderer
- I SAW the sunset-colored sands,
- The Nile like flowing fire between,
- Where Rameses stares forth serene,
- And Ammon's heavy temple stands.
- I saw the rocks where long ago,
- Above the sea that cries and breaks,
- Bright Perseus with Medusa's snakes
- Set free the maiden white like snow.
- And many skies have covered me,
- And many winds have blown me forth,
- And I have loved the green bright north,
- And I have loved the cold sweet sea.
- But what to me are north and south,
- And what the lure of many lands,
- Since you have leaned to catch my hands
- And lay a kiss upon my mouth.
I Would Live in Your Love
- I WOULD live in your love as the sea-grasses live in the sea,
- Borne up by each wave as it passes, drawn down by each wave that recedes;
- I would empty my soul of the dreams that have gathered in me,
- I would beat with your heart as it beats, I would follow your soul as it leads.
May
- THE wind is tossing the lilacs,
- The new leaves laugh in the sun,
- And the petals fall on the orchard wall,
- But for me the spring is done.
- Beneath the apple blossoms
- I go a wintry way,
- For love that smiled in April
- Is false to me in May.
Rispetto
- WAS that his step that sounded on the stair?
- Was that his knock I heard upon the door?
- I grow so tired I almost cease to care,
- And yet I would that he might come once more.
- It was the wind I heard, that mocks at me,
- The bitter wind that is more cruel than he;
- It was the wind that knocked upon the door,
- But he will never knock nor enter more.
Less than the cloud to the wind
- LESS than the cloud to the wind,
- Less than the foam to the sea,
- Less than the rose to the storm
- Am I to thee.
- More than the star to the night,
- More than the rain to the lea,
- More than heaven to earth
- Art thou to me.
Buried Love
- I SHALL bury my weary Love
- Beneath a tree,
- In the forest tall and black
- Where none can see.
- I shall put no flowers at his head,
- Nor stone at his feet,
- For the mouth I loved so much
- Was bittersweet.
- I shall go no more to his grave,
- For the woods are cold.
- I shall gather as much of joy
- As my hands can hold.
- I shall stay all day in the sun
- Where the wide winds blow,
- But oh, I shall weep at night
- When none will know.
Song
- O WOE is me, my heart is sad,
- For I should never know
- If Love came by like any lad,
- Without his silver bow.
- Or if he left his arrows sharp
- And came a minstrel weary,
- I'd never tell him by his harp
- Nor know him for my dearie.
- "O go your ways and have no fear,
- For tho' Love passes by,
- He'll come a hundred times, my dear,
- Before your turn to die."
Pierrot
- PIERROT stands in the garden
- Beneath a waning moon,
- And on his lute he fashions
- A little silver tune.
- Pierrot plays in the garden,
- He thinks he plays for me,
- But I am quite forgotten
- Under the cherry tree.
- Pierrot plays in the garden,
- And all the roses know
- That Pierrot loves his music,
- But I love Pierrot.
At Night
- LOVE said, "Wake still and think of me,"
- Sleep, "Close your eyes till break of day,"
- But Dreams came by and smilingly
- Gave both to Love and Sleep their way.
Song
- WHEN Love comes singing to his heart
- That would not wake for me,
- I think that I shall know his joy
- By my own ecstasy.
- And tho' the sea were all between,
- The time their hands shall meet,
- My heart will know his happiness,
- So wildly it will beat.
- And when he bends above her mouth,
- Rejoicing for his sake,
- My soul will sing a little song,
- But oh, my heart will break.
Love in Autumn
- I SOUGHT among the drifting leaves,
- The golden leaves that once were green,
- To see if Love were hiding there
- And peeping out between.
- For thro' the silver showers of May
- And thro' the summer's heavy heat,
- In vain I sought his golden head
- And light, fast-flying feet.
- Perhaps when all the world is bare
- And cruel winter holds the land,
- The Love that finds no place to hide
- Will run and catch my hand.
- I shall not care to have him then,
- I shall be bitter and a-cold --
- It grows too late for frolicking
- When all the world is old.
- Then little hiding Love, come forth,
- Come forth before the autumn goes,
- And let us seek thro' ruined paths
- The garden's last red rose.
The Kiss
- I HOPED that he would love me,
- And he has kissed my mouth,
- But I am like a stricken bird
- That cannot reach the south.
- For tho' I know he loves me,
- To-night my heart is sad;
- His kiss was not so wonderful
- As all the dreams I had.
November
- THE world is tired, the year is old,
- The little leaves are glad to die,
- The wind goes shivering with cold
- Among the rushes dry.
- Our love is dying like the grass,
- And we who kissed grow coldly kind,
- Half glad to see our poor love pass
- Like leaves along the wind.
A Song of the Princess
- THE princess has her lovers,
- A score of knights has she,
- And each can sing a madrigal,
- And praise her gracefully.
- But Love that is so bitter
- Hath put within her heart
- A longing for the scornful knight
- Who silent stands apart.
- And tho' the others praise and plead,
- She maketh no reply,
- Yet for a single word from him,
- I ween that she would die.
The Wind
- A WIND is blowing over my soul,
- I hear it cry the whole night thro' --
- Is there no peace for me on earth
- Except with you?
- Alas, the wind has made me wise,
- Over my naked soul it blew, --
- There is no peace for me on earth
- Even with you.
A Winter Night
- MY window-pane is starred with frost,
- The world is bitter cold to-night,
- The moon is cruel, and the wind
- Is like a two-edged sword to smite.
- God pity all the homeless ones,
- The beggars pacing to and fro.
- God pity all the poor to-night
- Who walk the lamp-lit streets of snow.
- My room is like a bit of June,
- Warm and close-curtained fold on fold,
- But somewhere, like a homeless child,
- My heart is crying in the cold.
The Metropolian Tower
- WE walked together in the dusk
- To watch the tower grow dimly white,
- And saw it lift against the sky
- Its flower of amber light.
- You talked of half a hundred things,
- I kept each little word you said;
- And when at last the hour was full,
- I saw the light turn red.
- You did not know the time had come,
- You did not see the sudden flower,
- Nor know that in my heart Love's birth
- Was reckoned from that hour.
Gramercy Park
For W. P.
- THE little park was filled with peace,
- The walks were carpeted with snow,
- But every iron gate was locked.
- Lest if we entered, peace would go.
- We circled it a dozen times,
- The wind was blowing from the sea,
- I only felt your restless eyes
- Whose love was like a cloak for me.
- Oh heavy gates that fate has locked
- To bar the joy we may not win,
- Peace would go out forevermore
- If we should dare to enter in.
In the Metropolitan Museum
- WITHIN the tiny Pantheon
- We stood together silently,
- Leaving the restless crowd awhile
- As ships find shelter from the sea.
- The ancient centuries came back
- To cover us a moment's space,
- And thro' the dome the light was glad
- Because it shone upon your face.
- Ah, not from Rome but farther still,
- Beyond sun-smitten Salamis,
- The moment took us, till you stooped
- To find the present with a kiss.
Coney Island
- WHY did you bring me here?
- The sand is white with sno,
- Over the wooden domes
- The winter sea-winds blow --
- There is no shelter near,
- Come, let us go.
- With foam of icy lace
- The sea creeps up the sand,
- The wind is like a hand
- That strikes us in the face.
- Doors that June set a-swing
- Are bolted long ago;
- We try them uselessly --
- Alas, there cannot be
- For us a second spring;
- Come, let us go.
Union Square
- WITH the man I love who loves me not,
- I walked in the street-lamps' flare;
- We watched the world go home that night
- In a flood through Union Square.
- I leaned to catch the words he said
- That were light as a snowflake falling;
- Ah well that he never leaned to hear
- The words my heart was calling.
- And on we walked and on we walked
- Past the fiery lights of the picture shows --
- Where the girls with thirsty eyes go by
- On the errand each man knows.
- And on we walked and on we walked,
- At the door at last we said good-bye;
- I knew by his smile he had not heard
- My heart's unuttered cry.
- With the man I love who loves me not
- I walked in the street-lamps' flare --
- But oh, the girls who can ask for love
- In the lights of Union Square.
Central Park at Dusk
- BUILDINGS above the leafless trees
- Loom high as castles in a dream,
- While one by one the lamps come out
- To thread the twilight with a gleam.
- There is no sign of leaf or bud,
- A hush is over everything --
- Silent as women wait for love,
- The world is waiting for the spring.
Young Love
- I
- I CANNOT heed the words they say,
- The lights grow far away and dim,
- Amid the laughing men and maids
- My eyes unbidden seek for him.
- I hope that when he smiles at me
- He does not guess my joy and pain,
- For if he did, he is too kind
- To ever look my way again.
- II
- I have a secret in my heart
- No ears have ever heard,
- And still it sings there day by day
- Most like a caged bird.
- And when it beats against the bars,
- I do not set it free,
- For I am happier to know
- It only sings for me.
- III
- I wrote his name along the beach,
- I love the letters so.
- Far up it seemed and out of reach,
- For still the tide was low.
- But oh, the sea came creeping up,
- And washed the name away,
- And on the sand where it had been
- A bit of sea-grass lay.
- A bit of sea-grass on the sand,
- Dropped from a mermaid's hair --
- Ah, had she come to kiss his name
- And leave a token there?
- IV
- What am I that he should love me,
- He who stands so far above me,
- What am I?
- I am like a cowslip turning
- Toward the sky,
- Where a planet's golden burning
- Breaks the cowslip's heart with yearning,
- What am I that he should love me,
- What am I?
- V
- O dreams that flock about my sleep,
- I pray you bring my love to me,
- And let me think I hear his voice
- Again ring free.
- And if you care to please me well,
- And live to-morrow in my mind,
- Let him who was so cold before,
- To-night seem kind.
- VI
- I plucked a daisy in the fields,
- And there beneath the sun
- I let its silver petals fall
- One after one.
- I said, "He loves me, loves me not,"
- And oh, my heart beat fast,
- The flower was kind, it let me say
- "He loves me," last.
- I kissed the little leafless stem,
- But oh, my poor heart knew
- The words the flower had said to me,
- They were not true.
- VII
- I sent my love a letter,
- And if he loves me not,
- He shall not find my love for him
- In any line or dot.
- But if he loves me truly,
- He'll find it hidden deep,
- As dawn gleams red thro' chilly clouds
- To eyes awaked from sleep.
- VIII
- The world is cold and gray and wet,
- And I am heavy-hearted, yet
- When I am home and look to see
- The place my letters wait for me,
- If I should find one letter there,
- I think I should not greatly care
- If it were rainy or were fair,
- For all the world would suddenly
- Seem like a festival to me.
- IX
- I hid three words within my heart,
- That longed to fly to him,
- At dawn they woke me with a start,
- They sang till day was dim.
- And now at last I let them fly,
- As little birds should do,
- And he will know the first is "I",
- The others "Love" and "You".
- X
- Across the twilight's violet
- His curtained window glimmers gold;
- Oh happy light that round my love
- Can fold.
- Oh happy book within his hand,
- Oh happy page he glorifies,
- Oh happy little word beneath
- His eyes.
- But oh, thrice happy, happy I
- Who love him more than songs can tell,
- For in the heaven of his heart
- I dwell.
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